weirdness and other oddities

hmm, how to begin such a post? other than to simply declare, my grandmother's dying. sad...and true...and all of the above. i'm not going to lie, i was ready to come back home from providence by the end of it. but i'm also not going to lie about how much fun i had, how great it was to see everyone, how much i'm going to miss jen and kathryn this semester, and how little thought i gave to the reality of my grandmother going into the hospital last monday, and not doing well. so coming home was going to be a wonderfully horrible thing...i was going to see mom, sleep in my bed, rush off to chicago, and spend some time with my family. and i did just that, but in much more of a whirlwind of exhaustion and fright than i anticipated. and coming home today, i'm really glad for, but i'm also so glad that i went. i just have to take it one day at a time right now, cuz who knows just when she'll go, and just how i'll be getting to school, and just what the hell is going to happen.